Fear and Loathing In Room 108

I watched the rest of History Channel's Anicent Aliens. I'm convinced aliens exsist.

Like 100% convinced.

"God" is nothing more then an E.T. An alien being.

Other then that, I find religions sick.

Disturbing, even.

And to think I was not only Baptised, I was Christend also.

Seriously, when I was born my mom had me baptised as a Catholic, a church she dispites and later had me Christend as a Lutheran, I believe.

Anyways....

My day was spent as follows:

I went to the library got "Fear and Loathing Las Vegas" By Hunter S. Thompson, "Chicken Soup For the Soul: What I Learned from the Cat" series by Jack Canfield and "The Beautiful and Damned" By F. Scott Fitzgerald, after that I headed over to the Dollar Store with Treymae, someone asked me if I actually call my mom this and I do. I give weird names to everything like I cats Swe-Swe's, anyways we got a bunch of junk food. I then went to London Drug's to get a refill on my prescription. Saw Kelly, watched the History Channel's Ancient Aliens and blogged about it.

That was my day summed up.

It's funny. I wanna lose 5 to 10 lbs a month and I get up at like 11am and am like "It's to late to exercise. I'll do it tomorrow." And I never do. Then I'll eat marshmellows and other junk foods.

I am suppose to be at least 115lbs. Not fat.

If I am fat at 23, I will seriously lose it, as in my mind.

I get weird visuals often about stabbing myself just to remove the fat.

I know its unhealthy to think that way, but I can't help it.

I've always had weight issues, like when I was 12 or 13 and weighted 105lbs I thought I was fat.

I can seriously seeing my losing the weight only to become afraid of gaining it back.

Mom said something similar.

I think I would starve myself if I knew for a fact I could lose a pound that way.

And somedays, food makes me sick. To touched, eat it, anything. And it tastes funny too.

Normally this would be followed by other things too, but I am not going to get into that.

Anyways...enough said its 3 am now and I am really tired, but I have a feeling I wont sleep until later. I think I'll watch a movie...

Until Next Time.